lambaian

dari petikan ‘di bawah lindungan kaabah’ oleh hamka:

“…baru sekarang adinda beroleh berita di mana abang sekarang. telah hampir dua tahun hilang saja dari mata, laksana seekor burung yang terlepas dari sangkarnya sepeninggal yang empunya pergi. kadang-kadang adinda sesali diri sendiri, agaknya adinda telah bersalah besar, sehingga kekanda pergi dengan tak memberi tahu lebih dahulu.

hanya kepada surat abang itu, surat yang hanya sekali itu dinda terima selama hidup, adinda tumpahkan air mata, kerana hanya menumpahkan air mata itulah kepandaian yang paling perhabisan bagi orang perempuan. tetapi surat itu bisu, meskipun ia telah lapuk dalam lipatan dan telah layu kerana kerap dibaca, rahsia itu tidak juga dapat dibukanya.

sekarang Abang, badan adinda sakit-sakit, ajal entah berlaku pagi hari, entah besok petang, gerak Allah siapa tahu. besarlah pengharapan bertemu…”

salam aidil-adha buat smua.
moga bertemu apa yang dicari. beroleh jua apa yang diharap.
… kasih, infak, redha, barakah dan pengorbanan …

oxygen

oh no.. i can’t breath. could someone bring me more oxygen tank. [laugh]. after one, came another one. non-stop. so many happy news flying around.oh my,  i’m dying in this kind of sweetness.

it’s november now. i’m waiting to buy the latest full album of B’z Magic and Matsu Takako Time For Music.

and i can’t wait for Slash [Guns N' Roses] solo album which featured Koshi Inaba B’z in SAHARA song. haha, i love Slash. and i’m so happy. among all the vocalists in this world, he choose Inaba-san.

weeks ago, i received B’z single album “My Lonely Town” and Matsu Takako single album “Kimi to Nara”. love it, love it, love it!! the arrangement of music and the lyrics.

and i love My Lonely Town PV. such a great idea by choosing Hashima Island [well-known as Battleship Island] as the background. somehow this reminds me of nakanaka’s Watashi wa Kai ni Naritai theme PV [by Mr Children].

oh, talking about Battleship.. kimura now filming a new movie Space Battleship Yamato -  a live action of Japanese science-fiction anime “Uchuu Senkan Yamato” – one of his favorite anime. the casts consist many my favorite stars!

and kimi to nara? haha, another bold message from otaka to otaku. matsu was so cute during the recording at Bellflower, Los Angeles. another thing, i was surprised that i really like the cover song of 500 Miles. i didn’t like the original english folk song, but the japanese version was really good.. thanx to otaka’s sweet voice. oh, Imawano was the one who did translated the song into japanese. and to me, the lyric of 500 Miles is a part of her message too. 500 Miles – Hedy West song really reminds me of SxS ~ Most Wanted 5 Women.. the first guest: ishihara mariko …. the part of shinkansen station.. and “yappari, she’s my soul mate” conversation – the part which suddenly kimura gave a BIG interest. hikhik.

the effect? the impact?!
i had a miraculous night dream.. where B’z and SMAP were singing “Ichibu to Zenbu” in front of me. haha. it was a great collaboration. with perfect sounds and best choreography.  somehow it’s looks like a mini concert to me. yeah, it’s just a dream. but i’m already satisfied.

and kimumatsu hyper mode suddenly hit me again. which turned myself to re-run LongVac, LoveGene, HERO, HERO Movie and all SmaSma Matsu guest in 2 days in a row! seriously, my heart was soaked with 1001 mixed-feelings. and my brain couldn’t recognized the definition of happiness and sadness. so what should i name this emotion? once in a blue moon mood?

recently, latest ANAN magazine released… it’s SMAP. talking about the signs of love from them to women… and the signs of love they catch from those women. Ararara~ reading that, one by one… how should i say.. it’s like their love confession to the ladies. that ladies aka my ladies aka their ladies. and the most obvious one is TsuRena. [giggling, squealing, almost screaming inside]. i’m so happy. strong confirmation that my sense and hypothesis are significant and relevant. lol. i become TsuRena fandom since the poster of Ryokiteki na Kanojo released. before the news and trailer or whatever stuff shown up. before the drama on-aired. imagine.. just looking to the poster, i could sense the rabu rabu white smoke around them. after Ninkyo Helper and Ballad and Haken no Oscar… tsurena is still there.

in SmaStation, in Tsuki Ichi Goro corner, goro gave his comment by saying matsu was wonderful and the most beautiful in Villon’s Wife movie. huhu, i really like to hear what goro would say about kanno miho’s upcoming ‘Permanent Wild Rose’ movie, next year.

i should say i was happy with matsu Jane Eyre musical play and Villon’s Wife movie. i think i already mentioned those many times at many places. i’ve heard another rumor last May, but now.. it’s official:

Matsu in another great movie KOKUHAKU (Confession) – based on the famous mystery novel by Minato Kanae. Matsu will play the leading role, a junior highschool teacher [single unmarried mother] whose daughter died at the school’s pool while waiting for her finishing her work. Somehow she believe that her daughter has been murdered by two of her students. For that she quit her job and promise that she will reveal the murderers. This best-selling year 2008 novel already received many awards.

okada masaki and kimura yoshino are among the co-stars. this movie is directed by Nakashima Tetsuya who worked with SMAP many times. nakashima also did PVs for matsu Minna Hitori and smap Sotto Kyutto too, ya’know.  hikhik, is this another coincidence?

now, i’m dokidoki waiting this mid-November…
emm, what else.. 2009 NHK Kouhaku Uta-Gassen hosts..
my vote card still for NakaNaka [NAKAi masahiro x NAKAma yukie].

monologue

This morning i attended AMOS workshop at another university. near to my hometown. actually, i was there because i’ve been invited by the lecturer who’s also the speaker. and almost all the participants were lecturers and staffs. and i was the only one ‘outsider’.

it’s a good opportunity as i learned new knowledge for 2 days without paying any fees. moreover it’s coincidentally useful for my research analysis. but somehow.. surrounding myself with those academicians, emm.. make myself become more and more and more inferiority.

postgraduate programs are not just about scrolls and transcripts. not even the title of ‘Dr.’ at the beginning of my name. it’s about research. it’s about knowledge. and how Islamic teachings could encounter in my daily life. how much i’ve learned Islamic teaching about business marketing, tourism, corporate communication, media, journalism, entertainment, sustainability and socio-cultural?!

Islam encourages us to learn and provides us the freedom of research. by doing the research, knowledge is pursued with humility and modesty which bring us closer to our God, The Creator. then we’ll find the freedom, dignity and mind gratification. knowledge. no matter how deep we try to explore and acquire it, the knowledge must be linked with good values and positive goals.

ah~ i feel more inferior.
hope this gonna make me keep on moving forward.

Day Two.
i found my dream.
what i wanna do for a long-term contribution to minority and locals.

moment

i’m cleaning my caps files…
lol, no wonder my notebook became slow… what a big file…
almost 1 year i didn’t organize those.

so who to start with…?
since baitong asked about nanako.. here for her.

nanako matsushima and yusuke santamaria came to Bistro SMAP on 29 June 2009.. for promoting Kyumei Byoto Season 4.
if not mistaken, that was third times she came to Bistro. really really enjoy this episode. i can’t stop smiling and laughing. feels warm. it’s like meeting old friends again.

the entrance part was funny. yusuke walked in..
“here i come!!… nana-chan”, he signaled her..
“haaaaaaait..”, she answered..
tak tak tak tak, in small run.. she came in. [aaa, so cute ^^].

nanako brought some ingredients/food seasonings for everyone to taste with carrot, cucumber, daikon, hard-boiled egg etc. i love the interaction of nana-yusuke-kimura.. they joked around. yusuke talked almost non-stop.. asked her a lot, teased her a lot. and treat this lady so well. also when nakai was not-so-sure, after knowing yusuke’s role as a genius doctor… nanako gave her back-up.. saying yusuke was really great doing the filming.

when i watched this lovely nanako-sorimachi:

reminds me of this takeno-amami.. hehe

so obvious this rabu rabu smoke. i love seeing this combi’s LIVE reaction in Mezamashi News. when it came to takeno, amami was suddenly paying attention to the VTR, nervously excited to hear comment from him. and takeno.. kept o-hehehe, pause, o-hehehe again… Well, honestly it’s rare to see him saying something personal about his co-star. ~how cute amami, how fun amami… emm, alright. let see what’s next.

Thnx God, in Fumo Chitai drama… takeno-amami gonna have a thing! ^^

domo

just drop by..
i’m still in holiday. while finding some solution with my school works.

many things i’ve tracked and read. now it’s time to find and watch. and that consuming my time, must be. how to pour and organize all these things i wonder? rather than read my blog, i wish people could just read my brain instead. kinda heavy to carry it.

emm, since i knew karasawa and eguchi already appeared in sxs promoting fumo chitai and kyumei byoto.. i’m in the mood to watch smasma for the whole 2009… in fast-forward mode.

also waiting for DVDs: [rena] Haken no Oscar, [nanako-eguchi-yusuke] Kyumei Byoto, [shingo-arisa-goro-kimura-shido] KochiKame.

and like usual, still hunting old dramas/movies. gladly, i found some.. [dancing while thinking my budget for this month].

*so happy watching variety ‘love science’ with karasawa, eguchi, sorimachi, takeno and keppei as the guests. i keep gyaa, gyaa… melting.

*happy watching smap game with their goukun [group-date] couples [arranged by goro.. hehe, hopefully one day, takeno nodate will come]

.. now watching this, can’t help screaming kyaaaa. coz in my head, i was totally IMAGINING smap together with their ladies. TABLE for TEN.

i was laughing, imagining kimura hugging matsu soooo long and tightly and keep comforting her ‘daijobu, daijobu’. although in REAL-LIFE, matsu is the one who always said daijobu words to kimura. since we know kimura sometimes can be panic, nervous and worrisome. only matsu could stabilize him. actually in sanma smap 2003, matsu as a guest; once said, she would just said daijobu daijobu to calm down her man.

and goro protecting miho’s head even he himself was scared.. lol, another proof which from goro’s view; he would give priority to others than himself. [goro once 'saved' matsu's hair from white clay in sxs 2005]. seems girl’s hair is important than his own hair. such a gentle person, na Goro-chan.

i bet if rena was there, tsuyoshi would gave a big grin as his wish to date rena became true [although i suspected tsurena already an item now]. tennen guy and tennen girl together doing Q&A, it’ll be more interesting if they win for real. there, tsuyoshi keep saying ‘yaabai, yaabai’. hahaha, reminds me of last year, his yaabai yaabai since he started knowing rena. ~ yaabai, it’s interesting. yaabai, she’s so cute. yaabai, i wanna date her. yaabai, i fall in love ~

the talento who coupled with shingo was singing and dancing bit… so, much easy for me to imagine arisa. haha. shinarisa should do duet for smap concert, one day… since both are same age, childhood friends and good in singing.

nakama wa? well, as yukie quite scared with any explosion sounds… she should just stay next to nakai. as a co-leader. up to now, so many people waiting the return of nakanaka – the masters of ceremony.

hahaha, Ryo-san!^^

Mr Weather Man..
lucky guy who has strong heart and strong hair ^^

koshiro-san and somegoro doing RampoKabuki play now.. i think goro should invite them to Kindaichi SP drama, next time. matsu’s cousins… ebizo with kimura in Mr Brain, shido with shingo in KochiKame, kantaro will be with rena in Departure stage play. matsu’s uncle.. kanzaburo with shingo and sorimachi in Zaitochi The Last movie.

if kimura doing P-chan again, he should invite ‘father in-law’, Ko-chan to the skit. to those who dunno, Ko-chan is a pet name of koshiro-san; given by kimura.

matsu now releasing her latest album.. a special album to me. 5 english songs [cover], 4 songs wrote/composed herself.. and 1 songs wrote/composed by her father. i should pay attention to the 4 songs. matsu is sending her message to someone. just look at the titles… Time for Music.. If I’m With You.. Certainly Said.. So Long.

tsk, tsk. if she’s with him… i’m sure, not only us… but taichi, tokio, toma, domoto tsuyoshi, kinki kids, mitani koki, SMAP, sanma, taka-san, HERO Josai teams and all people who wish the same thing; happen for real.. would be happy.

at this moment, my mind suddenly flashback the moment when kimura silently smiling to the talisman which he received from someone.. during TakuTsuyo Batsu Game Mt Fuji august 99. i’m sure the person must be so special.  someone who has an image of wearing beautiful kimono for traditional ceremonies, who visiting shrines, praying for safety of someone she loves. logically, if not his own mother, no one else could be in that kind of surroundings.. except the kabuki princess herself. matsu takako.

* happy watching nanako and sorimachi together.. talking about Great Teacher Onizuka. i think the interview was AFTER the filming.. not during filming. [i've seen the promo during the drama on-air too... also the combi in nakai's variety show]. love it. coz here, i could see nanako quite talkative and her eyes were shining happily… i believe at that stage, they already in rabu rabu atmosphere. one day, i will talk more about nanako-sorimachi’s chronology.

* happy to see amami met takeno again during Fumo Chitai press conference. amami and takeno were dressing in smart retro. lovely. near but far but close. haha, i dunno how to describe. ne, any development? haiyaark… just give a shoot.. you should take goro as an example.. don’t be slow like nakai. na takeno, do you understand.. wakaru?

i miss b’z. tak matsumoto and koshi inaba. CALLING.. calling their song.
oh, B’z contribute theme song for Oguri Shun’s movie “Tajomaru”… i like it! the title of the song is PRAY.

to-do-list

- bakansu part 2
- summary of latest news on ladies and men
- smabistro – nakanaka, tsurena, goromiho, shinarisa, kimumatsu … koshiro, somegoro .. nanako
- nakai – sorimachi – nanako – takeno – b’z

- love struck - his on her…
goromiho, nakanaka, tsurena, kimumatsu, nanakosorimachi..
and [err, shinarisa... also... err, takenoamami.. hehe]

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salam aidilfitri.. minal ‘aidin wal-faizin .. mohon maaf zahir dan batin .. mudah-mudahan senantiasa dilimpahkan Rahman dan RahimNya ke atas seluruh umat muslim muslimat mukmin mukminat  .. dunia dan akhirat.

bakansu

what i’m doing now?
…. em, a difficult who-will-win-one-million question [haha].
i’m so busy [full stop] sometimes space out [full stop] no time to make fanvideo [full stop] my campus blocked dailymotion, pandora, megaupload and mediafire access [full...hah?!] and that’s CRAZY ya’know! i feel like wanna bang my HEAD to the wall! at the same time, works piling up. argh, nuralisya seeking to escape – either bang bang bakansu [holiday = travel = a drink with umbrella] or bang bang my head! [..... err, full stop].
~ mirror mirror hanging on the wall, you don’t have to tell me who’s the biggest fool of all ~ : said M2M.

we’re still in the month of ramadhan. and it’s going to end by next week. seven days more, insyaallah. the next of tomorrow, i’m going back hometown for Eid-ul-Fitri celebration. nothing much to do. just planning to help my mom clean the house and prepare some food for the big day. that’s all. also pay visit to our relatives and friends [especially old generation] from house to house. it’s just a normal tradition for us. i prefer meeting and talking with old people rather than staying at home watching TV.

nothing good on TV though. more silly and boring shows. but i’m sure ‘the circus shows will still in the schedule. i think it’s already become a permanent program for any public holidays since i was born [joking]. yappari, malaysia tv station really love foreign circus, na. even it’s not related at all with our muslim festivals. emm, wakatta. ironically, i’m well-understood that certain my people still lack of common sense.

time passes quickly. [sigh] i feel ‘old’. when it comes to celebration or public holiday or wedding ceremony.. immediately i feel old! that’s why i love normal days. during normal days, this 30 years old girl feel soooo 13! yeah, depressing busy, but cozily playful.

i’m in happy happy mode now. thanks so much to all my ladies. without nanako, matsu, nakama, rena, miho.. and arisa. i dunno what to do to erase all the black clouds in my brain which hurt my black rabbit in my heart!

recently, i’m in craze doing PS.
not PlayStation. but PhotoShop. lol.
also the ‘Locomotion’ song keep humming inside of me.
hehe, well i have another version of Smap SoftBank in my head:
~ come on, come on… do… kimumatsu-motion with me~

oh btw, i’m fully rooting ArisaShingo. it’s a firm decision. after looooong, deep thinking to choose between arisa, yuuka and uehara. and my choice became stronger after i heard the returning of Arisa in Shingo’s latest drama [yeah ~ kochikame ga ii jan]. so i guess there will be another profile page here. hikhik, i still haven’t edit GoroMiho and NakaNaka pages yet. i’ll do it later – all at once. and i’m in the middle of working on my new website. i think that would be a solution to organize all my blogs.

actually all my blogs are just a place for myself. i didn’t expect people come and read. do people interested with what i wrote? frankly, i don’t like blogging. i’m a former writer who’s not good in writing blog [nuralisya gatek - gagap teknologi]. my real writing tools: just a piece of paper and a pencil. i guess i’m still in a world of 70s. [laugh] people in my country began using computer as a communication only after.. er, end of 1990s. as far as i remember, in year 1997.. i learned to chat in IRC chatroom. that’s the first time i learned how to type the keyboard and how to move the mouse. and after that, ‘With Love’ drama by takeno appeared on my TV screen. internet LOVE. oooooh~ such a nostalgic feeling! [nuralisya rabu rabu aishiteru].

…. to be continued
lisya take a break. Kit Kat?
no, M&M. or perhaps Meiji Galbochips

jane eyre

got message last week, my friend uchiyama was so excited to watch matsu’s latest stage play. and sarah probably will go around this week. hukhuk.. [envy envy]. yokatta ne.. i wish i could get an opportunity to go at least for once in my whole life.

hontou ni hontou, matsu takako is a powerful actress.. especially on stage. you should see her. live-in-action. since 16 years old debut, she never disappointed the audience. don’t be surprise if the tickets sold out so fast. and yes, not only locals but foreigners too.

and yes again, a ticket for stage play is considered expensive. and the price doesn’t include with other stuff like brochure or booklet. stage DVD? from what i heard, it’s more expensive than DVD for movie/drama. but definitely you won’t regret.. coz it’s worth.

but thanks to friends..
i got opportunity to watch a FULL version of matsu.. in NODA MAP OIL [with Tatsuya Fujiwara and Noda-san] and Roningai [with Karasawa, Nakamura Shido, Ihara Tsuyoshi, Tanaka Misato, Narimiya Hiroki etc].

other than that.. were bits and pieces. CMs, trailers, footage, long teaser, behind the scenes, reviews and news.

e.g:- Hamlet, Metal Macbeth, Ochepi, Voyage, Summer Hotel, Mozart, SISTERS, Withering Heights, Szechuan no Zennin, NODA MAP Crime and Punishment… and of course The Man of La Mancha.

how to say..
her aura is SOOOOO STRONG!
don’t worry if you don’t even know the language. eventually, she will break the wall. and you’ll find yourself in her magnificent world and she will drive you into a breath-taking journey.

i still remember when first time i watched her video.. a stage of matsu with her father [koshiro-san] and her sister [kio]. my brain just couldn’t concentrate at all with the plot. i was star-struck!! i couldn’t imagine i could see the family of three on the same stage. they’re amazing people – one of the most prestigious family in Japan. if, matsu’s brother [somegoro] or her cute nephew [kintaro @ itsuki] were joining the performance.. i think i’m deadly faint.

ah, they did actually.
last month, koshiro-san with his son, his daughters and his two grandchildren were performing special dance Shoukokai show.
somegoro said it’s the most difficult to arrange it with his two sisters since everybody were so busy. maybe that was the first and last time for the six family members on stage together. i wish koshiro-san will stay fit and healthy. i know some of his wish still not fulfill yet.
hehe, can you hear that, matsu?
taka-chan.. wakaru?

back to Jane Eyre..
this musical is originally in fully Japanese. the music and lyrics by paul gordon. meanwhile the book and additional lyrics by john caird. and it is presented through special arrangement with Music Theater International in new york. this is a matsu’s first-led musical..which she needs to perform 22 songs out of.. err i think, 23 songs in total.

just received news today:
matsu’s latest movie ‘The Villon’s Wife” won in Montreal Festival for Best Director category!! [yeayyy... jump*jumping*excitedly!].
i think that should be a good beginning..
since i could see a very competitive movies from other participants especially from Roma [Korkoro movie by Tony Gatlif] which getting Grand Prix  prize for this year.

sunset

on 13 may 2009, rena-chan wrote down while watching the sunset from her secret place:
Sekai ni hitotsu dake no taiyou
(The one and only sun in the world) changed it’s color again today and pleased everyone.
i guess that was the time when she received a good news from ano hito. i won’t elaborate much here. but i’ll sharing you this.. a puzzle.. done by me on that day.
[lisya continued listening to SMAP's song 'Kokoro no Puzzle Rhythm']
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saburo-riko in ryokiteki na kanojo.

i always keep it a secret, but i keep thinking of you.
i ignored you, but i keep thinking of you.
the truth is.. i truly keep thinking of you.

i love you because you’re honest.. as clear as the blue sky.
i love you because your kindness.. as boundless as the blue sea.

the day i cut my hair too short.. i was embarrassed to meet you.
i was secretly looking to your profile.
i wonder what i’m going to do if you’re going to hate me.

what colors do you like?
what music do you like?
what kind of clothes do you like?
what hairstyle do you like?
what kind of person do you like?
… i really wanna ask you.

you’re just next to me.
you’re just near where you could hear me
but i haven’t say anything to you.
i keep everything inside my heart.

i love you ~ i love you ~ i love you
a hundred of love ~ a thousand of love ~
couldn’t say enough… how much i love you.

now, the night is already over.
the sky is getting brighter.
the sunshine coming through the curtain.. falling on this letter.

all i have to do.. just stretch out my fingers a bit and you are here.
knowing this really make me smile.
knowing you are here..
and i could touch you..
make my heart beat faster.
together with you, so close… i fall in love.

i have never seen a shooting star.
i have never make a wish on a magic lamp.
i don’t need a dream.
i’ve nothing to wish for.
i just only want to be with you.
so don’t go away from me.
never go away from me.
actually i’m not strong.
and i easily become so lonely.
so please don’t go away from me.
please.. don’t ever go.
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crayon

do you know CRAYON song?
white and blue.
i learned it from TsuRena in Ryokiteki na Kanojo drama
here, my old stuff.. caps and montages.
at this moment i feel i would like to sing.. {like rena-chan}

~ what color do you love?
blue!^^
the color that you love is blue
so the first crayon that would be gone is blue~

~ what color do you love?
white!^^
the color that you love is white
so the first crayon that would be gone is white~

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have you heard B’z new songs? – yappari, i love both! have you heard SMAP new songs? – hehe, i love Side-A only.. have you heard Matsu Takako songs? – her new album will release in october.. i’m dying to listen.

lailailailailai.. Gently, Tightly.. Certainly Said.. DIVE!!^^