looks like i’m updating this site once a month.. hehe…
just finish my urgent work.. quite hectic with my research presentation and proposal to Ministry.
thnx to people who leave few comments here and there.. arigatou.
just now, i checked my mail.. Youtube removed my Kimumatsu Charm video due to reporting from someone.. when i translated the kanji.. it’s a Art Bank Ltd (?). Huh, any idea what’s happened around? 
i love Charm.. Frankly, it’s my labor of love to KimuMatsu…that’s why my video-making quite smooth (even with laptop’s limited space and simple basic Window Movie Maker software). btw, now my account already suspended. i don’t like Youtube actually.. but i upload those clips coz a small group of my friends are there. weird ne.. how come Charm is reported as illegal… i was expecting SmaSma clips or any TV shows.. haha. hemm, never mind… let it be.
Last night, i made omatsu video Minna Hitori for my little sis.. she celebrated her birthday this month.
kimumatsu – needing you (63.09MB) http://www.mediafire.com/?xqmdfjmeamp
And today, i’m nearly banging my head to the wall… due to exhausted and tiredness completing my task. Thanx to B’z .. listening to Koshi singing and Tak’s guitar.. make me fresh, alive.. Too good to think, to feel that.. i’m still alive!
there’re several smappies asked me if i got sexual attraction towards SMAP.. emm, no. SMAP is like my childhood friends.. thinking of them is like thinking of my old Japanese pen-pal (year 1993) who introduced me to this group. {except last month, i’ve got silly craziness with Tsuyoshi }
KimuTaku? nai.. nai.. He is for oMatsu only!
……….. maybe i could say my dream man is someone like Takeno (Yutaka Takenouchi) or Koshi.. Actually i also think, Tak is a romantic guy. I’m not good in describing.. just watch the above clip.. HONTOU ni, Koshi is triple HOT than oTaku (Kimura)! Plus, Koshi is high educated especially in Maths. As my dad is Professor in Maths and Fuzzy.. i’m sure my dad would invite someone like him to be his son-in-law.. muahaha.
B’Z – HAKANAI DIAMOND
All Words by Koshi Inaba | All Songs by Tak Matsumoto
Album: Big Machine (2003) – NBA Japan 2003 theme song – credit to Keen
Even if I cry or struggle, the answer won’t come back
The key to open this heart, seems like I have forgotten it somewhere
One way or another, I had a premonition that everything will break down
Not understanding where my level is, I’ve started giving praises to myself
Riding on a conceited illustration with not even a rope to cling to
I have become the type of person I hate the most
Let’s laugh at my ignorance self and situation
Where ever I go, with the speed increased
Not recalling forgotten things, my boots are getting worn out
Whatever the outcome is fine, nothing scares me anymore
Don’t have time to care about other people’s pain either
Such empty diamond
Running with accessories on the outside and immediate good feeling in the heart
Getting drunk in the midst of people who handle well their skillful conversation
Words to restore me back to reality are rather curt
For certain, someday we will have the same dream
We believed and understood each other to a frightening extent
Having done bad things, the penalties are coming back right at me
My heart turned pale, inside it I’m concealing a useless smile
Where ever I go, with the speed increased
Not recalling forgotten things, my boots are getting worn out
Whatever the outcome is fine, nothing scares me anymore
I can’t do anything, I can’t give no answer, keep running swiftly on this character
Everyone has disappeared, for the first time it soaks into my mind
The thing I’m running after without even a sideway glance is actually
Such empty diamond
I can’t help it
An illusioned life
